Well, after a 4.5 hour drive home from South Dakota last night, I made it safely back to the bosom of Lincoln. I never appreciate this city more than when I have been away from it for weeks on end. Cognitively, I know it's not the greatest city in the world to live in, nor is it the prettiest. But it is home. And I've lived here for something like 16 years now, so it's very familiar, which I find incredibly comforting. And welcoming after I've been away for so long.
Today, I've managed to get quite a bit done, though probably not enough. I braved the massive crowds and jam-packed parking lots of several stores in town and managed to get most of my Christmas shopping done. There were moments when I was standing in a jam-packed Bath and Body Works where I darn near couldn't take all the people. I'm discovering more and more the older I get that I just don't like crowds. They stress me out. But I took some deep breaths, and kept repeating "I will not get stressed, I will not get stressed" over and over in my mind. And it worked quite well. On top of that,![[profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
enigmaticblues and I got the Christmas tree up tonight. We had to rearrange the entire living room to make it fit. But I'm very pleased with the end result. It's beginning to feel a lot like Christmas around here, as they say, and that I like a lot.
In other good news, I finally discovered this week that the major feelings of self-doubt that were plaguing me for months on end have gone away. A very good discovery, if you ask me. And it was nice to have it validated byenigmaticblues. When I got home on Friday night, she and I talked for several hours (as we always do when one of us has been away for awhile). Anyway, I was talking to her about all the things I have to do for work and the decisions I think I've finally made about what I want to see happen with my career at KPMG. I told her that I thought the self-doubt was finally gone, and she told me that she could tell that it was. That I seemed to have a very different attitude, a different tone of voice when I talked about work compared to even a month or two ago (which typically involved me crying at some point). So yay!
Well, I think I've babbled on long enough. Happy Sunday to everyone!
Today, I've managed to get quite a bit done, though probably not enough. I braved the massive crowds and jam-packed parking lots of several stores in town and managed to get most of my Christmas shopping done. There were moments when I was standing in a jam-packed Bath and Body Works where I darn near couldn't take all the people. I'm discovering more and more the older I get that I just don't like crowds. They stress me out. But I took some deep breaths, and kept repeating "I will not get stressed, I will not get stressed" over and over in my mind. And it worked quite well. On top of that,
enigmaticblues and I got the Christmas tree up tonight. We had to rearrange the entire living room to make it fit. But I'm very pleased with the end result. It's beginning to feel a lot like Christmas around here, as they say, and that I like a lot.In other good news, I finally discovered this week that the major feelings of self-doubt that were plaguing me for months on end have gone away. A very good discovery, if you ask me. And it was nice to have it validated by
enigmaticblues. When I got home on Friday night, she and I talked for several hours (as we always do when one of us has been away for awhile). Anyway, I was talking to her about all the things I have to do for work and the decisions I think I've finally made about what I want to see happen with my career at KPMG. I told her that I thought the self-doubt was finally gone, and she told me that she could tell that it was. That I seemed to have a very different attitude, a different tone of voice when I talked about work compared to even a month or two ago (which typically involved me crying at some point). So yay!Well, I think I've babbled on long enough. Happy Sunday to everyone!
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